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“The last nerve”

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“The last nerve”

Today has been one of those days you know? one of those days you find yourself uttering the words “your getting on my last nerve” more often then you would care to admit, I don’t know why I think those words hold any weight in the minds of my kids, it’s not like the “last nerve” is some critical component of my genetic make-up and without it there would be an inevitable “jenga effect” resulting in my spontaneous combustion…. one of those days you fantasize about running away but can’t even run away in your own head without hearing the six year old and the seven year old fighting about if the blanket smells like “Nanny’s” or if it smells like “soap” Or the two year insisting her point that “scary cows” DO live in the house next door and say “moooooo” to her as she walks by, the dog chewing on your pants and the cartoons blaring at absurdly loud volumes, The dirty laundry basket is about to erupt, the mess being made while you peel potatoes and carrots for supper is going to take ANOTHER hour to clean, now the dog is whining at the door, and you trip over the 2 year who was rolling around the floor!

One of THOSE days the “last nerve” quote on repeat kind of days. So after countless failed attempts to control this feels like an eternity kind of day, I’m going to have to surrender to it, close the curtains and take off my glasses so I can’t see the mess, and snuggle with these little people until they seem less like evil demons sent to drive me crazy and more like the beautiful children that bring tears to my eyes and fill me with pride, the children I love.

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Why I will never hate Muslims.

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Why I will never hate Muslims.

In light of the recent events in Canada I’ve been consumed with a fear, but not a fear the majority holds, I’m not scared of all that is Islam. I’m consumed with a fear of the reactions or overreactions of the majority, I’m consumed with a fear that comes from the realization that people, the vast majority of people are puppets the vast majority have let the media and government build tiny houses of hatred in their hearts, and as each wall goes up and new tools of propaganda are used, a new puppet is born.

I’m deeply saddened by how quickly hatred can be built In hearts that otherwise were so pure, hearts of Canadians, humanitarians, mothers, fathers, brothers, sisters, wives and husbands, people who love their families and love their country. I watch the hatred the racism, the ignorance and the fear building, the fire growing, the houses of anger built in all of your hearts getting bigger and bigger, fear is the strongest tool they have and they are using it to their full advantage. I watch in disbelief as my friends, my family are taken over by this immense hatred, until I can’t take it anymore I want to scream “WE ARE HUMAN!” Can we not recognize that anymore?

These are extremists using The Qur’an and killing in its name, these are radicals home grown radicals and Muslim radicals alike. There have always been extremists using religion to further their own agenda. The tragic endings that were bestowed upon our Canadian soldiers were just that tragedies, executed by mentally unwell men who saw an opportunity to act on their dark desires in a way they felt was justified in the Qur’an. Despite the tragic circumstances I hope we as humans can rise above hatred and racism and see the bigger picture. I hope before accepting hate before accepting racism you take a good hard look at why your overflowing with intolerance, look at who ignited it and why this spark was ignited in you. Educate yourself before condemning an entire culture an entire race, don’t just hate Muslims because the media and the government told you to hate Muslims. Fill your hearts with understanding and compassion and your brains with knowledge don’t leave room for the propaganda and fear.

The true north “strong and free” is what we are, is what we truly want to be, but how can we be strong and free when our minds and hearts are controlled to feel and think how the media wants us to feel and think. Don’t accept what the media tells you to think, don’t just blindly accept the small bombs that have been planted in your hearts and your brains, that explode whenever the media feels like flipping the fear switch. We are Canadians and to me that means I am a gentle, good, accepting person who cannot be swayed by fear, and I will continue to be that person, because I would rather be that person then someone filled with hate and fear, I will continue to tear down the walls they try to build in my heart with reason and education. I will continue to defuse the bombs before the media changes everything that I am. I will not let fear guide me and I will not let uneducated opinions spread through my veins like wildfires.

I’m sure many people will be angry at me for not being angry, but I’m not and I never will hold any angst for Muslims. I am however angry that we are being used as puppets to further justify the war in Iraq, to further justify the killing of innocent Muslims, who are being dehumanized and demonized so you can swallow the pill of innocent lives being lost. It sounds eerily similar to the tactics that hitler used, doesn’t it?

Crystal Styles.